Happy

Okay, I have been writing dark stuff, like, for ever.
This one is for a change.

I am happy today; since last night, in fact. And I mean happy, not amused. Happier than I've been for weeks. Months may be.
What happened goes like this...

I fellow of mine came to me yesterday because of some work related thing. I could feel that 'e was really troubled about something. Now I think that 'e is on a much higher level than me in terms of understanding of the subjective world (or 'clear funde' as we call it in an informal but fairly accurate way). Still, I really wanted to help. So I asked what it was, but tried to not use too much force. 'e told me what had been bothering 'im/'er. We talked about it and thought of what could be done to ease the situation. I was already happy that 'e counted on me to share 'is/'er feeling.
Today, 'e did what we had planned and it worked! It was only to a certain extent but I was delighted to see 'er/'im back to 'is/'er normal self.

It is a good feeling being able to convert someone's pain into ease. I am not really used to it so may be I am over reacting.

PS: I have tried to maintain that persons anonymity to the level of his/her gender. This may have affected the flow of the text(not that it could have been better anyway).

Aloofness

I can not agree more to the fact that I am an antisocial being, and I prefer being one. However, as I say this, this is not as simple as it may sound.

Staying disconnected and independent is not very straight forward. No matter how hard you try to avoid it, environment always affects you. You can only pretend to not care. Basically, you just try to stay away from something when you are uncomfortable with it. Other times, you do it because you are afraid that you would hurt others with your(prejudiced) views. There may be more. But what ever the case is, eventually you will just push the ones you care about - away. You can not blame others, mind it, from stopping to care about you. They would just be 'afraid' to bother you, at least in the beginning, and later, just ignore. You will be the one suffering. This is one paradox, and I fail to understand how to get out of it.
The choice is simple, though, if you just like being alone.